Question Mark !!!!!

One night when sleep once again betrayed me, I went out in the balcony and started to look up at the stars. I started making out patterns, one pattern which I could easily make out was a Question Mark ?
Perhaps because my life has never gone through a phase when certainty was there. I smiled looking upwards, indeed I was smiling(rather laughing) at myself. I looked up again....Question Mark ? Question Mark ? Question Mark ? Question Mark ?........Question Marks everywhere....
I took a deep breath, there was silence all around and I realized that silence can also be comforting sometimes. Since I was going through a phase of introspection those days, I thought this could just be the time I may get some answers. I started to look around to see if there is something else.
I took out a piece of paper and a pen and started to make a wish list. A list of all the things I aspire to achieve. As expected I had written a handful of things and then happened something. As always happens with me, a voice came from within asking me to scribble down what am I doing to achieve the ephemerals on the wish list. I started and within minutes I was finished with the writings.....
LESSON LEARNT !


I stood up, took out another paper and prepared a list of things I need to do. I knew I was taking a step in the right direction but somehow I was still not convinced, something was holding me back.
I kept writing(rather planning) and then 4 hours later I realized that I had slept in the balcony that night and it rained heavily. I looked at the paper and I was dazed to see that at the end of the list, I had unconsciously written, "I wish it rains !!!!"
I don't remember if I wrote this. I don't know what prompted me to do this but I started to tear off the portion where "I wish it rains " was scripted and suddenly amidst the shining sun and clear sky was a streak of lightning and thunder, I could see the clouds being tore apart, whirlwind, rain and cyclone.
And I was brought to senses, yes, with my mother shouting at me, it was then that I actually woke up, I ran back to my room with the paper folded in my hand. I unfurled the paper there. The words that followed changed the way I used to think and approach life.


YOU WOULD NOT BE GRANTED A SECOND CHANCE !!!

I realized that it was something that was always dwelling inside the sub-conscious, may be I was too lame(rather lazy) to go about it.
That night still remains as an unsolved puzzle.....but after that night I rarely saw a question mark in the sky.. :)