versatility?? was it??

Years have passed since then, and I also have grown up and matured. I now better understand things and phenomenon. They, my classmates, my friends used to compliment me then. Now I understand, in  a broader sense, those were not compliments. Though, they used to tell me what they perceived then. After all, they weren't very mature either.  

I would be studying, and suddenly would walk up and move to the park in front of my place and go out to play. No rhyme, no reason.

I would be watching TV, and the very next moment wouldn't like pursuing the same course of action. I would be preparing for my Science exam, and would leave that to do Math problems.

No rhyme, no reason.

Different I was, or as they said. 

Quite often, I did things without rhyme, I did them because I felt like doing them, without allowing my conscience to come into picture. I did them just because by heart I was attracted to them. I did not care if they were right or wrong, I did not bother even afterwards.

I believe all of us take certain decisions which are beyond the boundaries of interrogation of our own. Quite clearly, these decisions or actions form a very small part of our lives, otherwise, we would not have taken so many such decisions.

In school, I would often receive pleasing compliments.Some would call me a multitasker, some would call me versatile. All because I would do things which were beyond the bounds of sanity yet not insane. All because I would do things that involved no sense of right and wrong, yet didn't appear wrong.

As the tide of time whirled the pages of book of my life, I realized that I was far away from versatility, far away from multitasking. I have been living in a misconception for quite a while now. And as I realized this, I wished had it not happened. I wished to be immature, to be still learning to walk. I wished if I were a kid, still.

But now I do realize, that this is bygone, and

I am not versatile, I am just volatile......